do not love
Published: 16-06-2014 - Last Edited: 07-11-2022

do not love poetry art
It is not
that I do not love you anymore.
Believe me,
I probably love you now more than ever.
And I want the creases in your horsehead
and the bends of your fingers,
the back of your neck and the insides of your ears.
Will you watch my eyelashes
and give me your attention
when I am seeping with joy?
Will you close your eyes
and just listen to my voice?
Because that way, I promise,
you will learn to love me –
The way I have learned to love your eyes,
those pits of darkness,
as you have once called them,
if that’s so, I want to dive into darkness.
If you let me, I will strip naked and plunge into your darkness.
I want it to seep into every crease and bend in my body.
Embracing everything I have wrong with me.
They are like portals, where each flaw and imperfection”¦
becomes perfection.
I myself, am completely made of flaws.
Stitched together with good intentions
– bathed in your darkness, I feel pure.
Bathed in the darkness of your gaze”¦
I only ever feel, beautiful.
It is not
that I do not love you anymore.
Believe me, I probably love you now more than ever.
And the poetry of your presence is like no other
because what other poem
sucks away all the oxygen in your lungs
and all the gravity holding you grounded
so that you have to find every corner possible, reachable
to hold on?
What other poem makes your lips blue,
and your fingers ache so much
you want to let go?
But you know that if you do,
the poetry will be lost forever.
Will you look at me when I am not crying?
When I am not stung, stained with insecurity?
Will you kiss me when my skin is not dry?
Close your eyes and listen to my voice
because that way,
I promise,
you will learn to love me.
And you may not have trustworthy hands,
that deceive you on your hearts command
and although they will never be large enough
to fit all of me
I will give you everything
that does fit inside of them,
and hope it will be enough.
It is not
that I do not love you anymore.
Please, listen to me,
because that way,
you may someday learn to love me.
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